In Love

Since I and Chase have been together for over a year now [as of 16th July] it will come as no surprise that I am in love with him [who would spend a year with another person if they didn't love them?!]. It does, however, come as much of a surprise to me how much I love him and how much of an impact he has on my day to day life.

We went to France for a week together to see my Dad and his family. It was a really nice trip, not a holiday as such, but a really nice week away together. I spent the week before with him as well. That's like an entire fortnight! A whole two weeks sharing the same bed and spending more or less the whole time together. I will not lie, I was looking forward to stretching out in bed and using the best pillows and wathing what I want to on TV as soon as he went back to his house. But there's so much I miss aswell that I didn't anticipate.

I miss his cuddles and the way he would say goodnight to me, I miss waking up to him sleeping, I miss having him nearly yank my arm out of place so I can snuggle up to him, I miss him moaning about how much noise I make in the mornings when he's still asleep, I miss how his faces changes and goes all soft when he speaks to me, I miss how his voice changes when he talks to me too, I miss how he when everybodys talking around us he winks at me and mouths that he loves me.

And, this morning, as I lie here at 6am - I miss all the space he takes up in bed, I miss him squashing me against the wall, I miss him complaining that I stole all the covers.

Chase does this one thing that annoys me so much. He'll move me so I'm lying on my side facing away from him and he'll come up really close to me and put his arms around me and cuddle me really tightly and put his head on mine so his mouth is near my ear. Which I love. And then, when I'm all relaxed and ready to sleep, he starts snoring - REALLY snoring. Right in my ear. But I even miss that!

Like I said, it surprised me how much I missed him when he was gone - for a while we've stayed over each others houses for a couple of days a week and I'd gotten used to that. But having unlimited Chase access for over a fortnight and then having it taken away was a shock to the system, to be honest. It made me realise how much I do miss him when he's not here, it feels like my right arms been chopped off and I can't get used to life without it.

He's gonna have to come live with me soon - that's the best option really!