Birthdays

On Friday it's Chase's 19th Birthday. I'm really quite excited.

I brought him Steven K Amos tickets, which he knows about, and then I've downloaded a bunch of movies, brought him lots of sweets and chocolate and got take-away menus for him to choose from - my treat. I'm gonna buy him some beer and we'll spend the night in together. Frankly, I've spent a lot of money and put a lot of effort into his present and thinking up something good for us to do together.

I can't see him doing anything like this for my birthday.

I sent him a list a while a go, after he asked, of stuff I wanted for my birthday. They included the usual - books and CDs and DVDs, to special things I'd really like - A picnic, dinner out, a mixed tape, photo album etc. I much prefer these type of things to material possesions any day but I have a feeling I'll get a book or something. It's not that I won't be happy with it, I love anything he buys me. I just sometimes wish he'd put more effort into it.

It's not just Chase - I have organised and thrown 4 or 5 surprise parties for my friends and family. I've went to the trouble of inviting everyone, sorting out food, decorations, drink, everything... Yet I know, that no one would consider doing this for me.

For my sisters 18th Birthday I got in contact with all her friends and all her family, I made her a book with loads of messages from all of them in and lots of pictures. I know I wouldn't get one of these at all.

I feel like if I don't organise anything for my birthday, I won't do anything. People won't even think 'Lets meet up tonight at the pub for Leigh's birthday,'

I know I'm nothing special, just sometimes it annoys me.

When people say 'What dya fancy for your birthday?' I always say 'Oh no, it's okay. I don't really want anything...' because I feel like if they were really bothered about what to get me, they'd already know. Yknow? I don't tend to ask people what they want for their birthdays - I listen and remember.

Sometimes I just wish people would make a big deal of me and my birthday like I do when it comes to theres. But I know they won't, so what's the point?

FYI: I love Chase, he always buys me something nice that I love - it's just this gave me something to illustrate my point with.